i wrote "The Fall of the Seele Concept" in 2024 to re-construct one of the darkest times of my life back in 2009 when i was living in Germany, i was completely stuck, my mind, my imagination, my inner voice, my consciousness, my neural activity, my memories, everything came to a sudden stop and i was no longer able to think or formulate my thought, i met the worst souls on earth, i was too close to it that i came to realize it's danger; It was the worst of times to become a musical composer, and i was trying my best, but there was this dark energy that finally came to eat me out completely.
I lost count of how many days or weeks i was inside this black shadow, and i remember that while i was inside all thought was how can i fix my mind what should i do, what is the right the track to follow my path, all this questions and what i truly wanted to do was to walk the desert from corner to corner to find the water and clean my hands because i thought that would be a solution and it isn't, i thought i was blind because everywhere i look it was black energy but no colors, and i started yelling out as hard as i could, but eventually this shadow was flexible and was moving around me all the time, i thought it was a mistake i made and i started searching for an answer inside human components that may or may not push me outward, the anti-mirror logic of a device for magnetism storage seemed to have answers. I eventually found that this shadow holds algebra similar to that of the origin of every sun, i discovered its mechanism but not the reasons why it was there focused on affecting me so intensely, and i though it had a device for controlling mathematical operations at the speed of sound, like a sort of "biological computer generated circuit" that was in it's theory compatible with lights shadows and everything else, inside, and tired after trying every possible solution, i heard this woman's voice and saw her face for the first time, she appeared many times in my life later when i was in different countries, and in different circumstances, she was always observing. For the song "the shadow of each cloud" i was invited by a woman who's name i don't know to use her voice samples because she said it was important, i didn't understood at the time, she offered me this samples of her voice like in 2023 and it wasn't until i was putting together the album writing the music, searching inside sikhitothemax the text that can help me battle against this dangerous enemy.
I came to call it the Seele Concept, which is a sea of dirak in which souls can get in by an accident but cannot go out, the place of the shadow is not recognizable but it is located at the center of a turbulent ocean, i have never seen someone suffer such a torture like mine with the Seele Folks, but this album became a weapon to protect myself and its curious as soon as it was finished i felt how that shadow vanished forever, my mind was clear and could see how it was all imploding by itself.
i started my kundalini yoga practice in 2013 because i needed to heal the wounds and the traumas it left on me, i feel much better, and this is an album that i needed to make to close that chapter once and for all.
I hope everyone can understand what happens when people struggle with mental health and how weak one can go, but hey! Kundalini Yoga and the Siri Guru Grant Sahib has all the power and strength to get out of any problem, i feel proud of the result and left all fears behind
if you are the woman who gave me the voice samples and are reading this, i want to say thank you because it was an important piece to the puzzle just as you mentioned
The Fall of the Seele Concept is an album of 7 songs full of pure fire, i love to practice the kriyas and excercises that are with the "breath of the fire" technique with this music in the background it just gives me everything i need
the lyrics for each song are on each song description page
